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I bought Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind the other day. I've watched it a few times since. I've actually watched it a lot. I saw it when it first came out, and I really did like it. It was nice... but since Dana and I broke up a few months ago, it's become so much more. Though I know we can never be together again, at least it's helped me break down the walls of disdain, and it's allowed me to enjoy a few good memories. I'm dating Hannah now... I love her, I really do care so much about her, and she's wonderful. But in some ways I know it will never be like it was with Dana. I know that. I'm okay with that. And while it makes me sad to realize this, I know it's for the best. A relationship with that much passion is bound to burn itself down to a charred mess.

Fuck. I'm so sick of the see-saw of life. I'm up one day, and down the next. And this is reality. It happens to millions of people a day. It makes me tired. I'm tired. I'm stretched way to thin for someone my age. I've experienced all to many things. And those experiences, though learning, are starting to dampen my spirits, and any zest for life I once had. I feel like an old man. My hands are even starting to look and feel old. I'm just a kid. Fuck...