final gasp

Intensify the tenseness to shatter those crystal eyes
I will forget that which stains my heart,
and helps my hands receive loneliness
Flaw my mind further and nurture my ingrown sorrow
Do this on command and be mine for a short time
Slow down the pace of death enough to catch a glimpse of the end
An end I can’t accept
How I love this path to the oblivion of my soul

Cries within smiles permeate the passing moments
I’m more sorry now than I will ever be
And more perfect than I could wish for,
perfectly drowned in isolation
I did it all on purpose somehow
Shaking with an unshakable illness

I will walk away knowing passions you won’t
I’ll let those crystal eyes crumble
I’ll finish what is undone, and let my heart fall into final pose
Wounded and pierced
Bleeding for this picture,
Moments before I crash into this inevitable depression for the last and final time
Dark lights are my source of shadows
And they are my last thing I’ll see