a different wish

Life is supposed to end now, while I am ready to depart without any regrets. 18 years old and I have no regrets, and no ties. I can see it, and it's so beautiful. I don't fear it, in fact I welcome it. I won't bring it on, but I shall not push it away if it is to come. I've made peace with myself, and that's the best I can do. I don't know about peace with god, if he even exists...but I'd like to think that when life spits me back, he'd be on my side. Not because I'm a saint- I'm not, but because I would chose that.

So my wish is not suicide, my wish is eternal blissful nothingness, or whatever is on the other side. I am without excessive turmoil though, and it's a different feeling. I am not attached to life, nor am I going to check out before I should, I am okay with whatever happens. Everything's all a facade anyways...